I wake up everyday feeling that the pain will lessen somehow and I will be able to move on with other things but how do you move on ? I have million questions going through my mind . How could this happen ?.Why ? why us ?. Until now I have only seen people far away go through grief . I always wondered what they must be going through . I thought it could only happen to other people , not me .Never knew this pain would numb my thoughts and everything in life .It makes no sense . How could the most precious gift be your's one day and be taken away suddenly ?. One day life seems perfect in every way and next moment empty . My heart longs for love that I once felt .There is nothing that can make me feel better or make me feel happy . I cannot understand the nature of life . Why we form bonds only to be broken someday ?. I feel helpless and weak .Sometime I wish to turn back the clock and change everything . Wish I had the power to undo everything . Just wish I had one more chance .
I wake up in the middle of the night and feel like may be its just a bad dream . May be you are somewhere there cozy in your bed . I will see you and hug you again . But it hits me and my mind becomes numb . Pain is unbearable .Every time I see your pictures I see so much life in your eyes . Your beautiful face perfect in every way . I remember how you used to hug me with your arms around me . Your love has been the greatest gift to cherish .Every time I see myself in mirror I wonder how you could have looked if you were my age . I wish I could somehow give my life and bring you back safe . So you can taste the life like I have . Go to school and make friends .Make mistakes and feel the joy in life .May be fall in love and go on an adventure . But now I can only imagine in my dreams . I see you in dreams comforting me and I feel the love all over again .
I want to tell you I love you . I fell in love the moment I held you in my arms . I will always love you and your memories will hold a special place in my heart . I promise you I will not just only think about the day you are gone but will always remember the happy times we shared , I promise you I will remember the beautiful smile and sweetest songs you sang .I will always remember your life which you spent with us .Those memories will always be with me and I will share them where ever I go . I will celebrate your life and love and you will never be forgotten in our happier times . Your spirit will be with us in every celebration in our life . We will not just shed tears for the day you were gone but always celebrate your life that you lived with us . Those are the moments I cherish forever in my life . You are not just a memory but soul and spirit that lives in me and the bond will never be broken .
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